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bluebeardit's *amazing* what the vibration of a weedeater can do for relieving tension in your shoulders.
as a kid (under 10), I found myself in a wierd mental state from time to time. It stopped for awhile, and I didn't get it again 'till I was about 18. These past few months it's happened more than ever, at least once a week.. usually for only a few minutes at a time..
bear with me if this doesn't make any sense. I've never put it into words.
things that I'm focusing on.. go.. big. like, it'll zoom in, go back to original, in and out, repeatedly, always in the same rhythm. At the same time my focal point is "zooming", what I'm hearing gets louder.
how much the "zoom" is, and how much the volume of my surroundings goes up, depends on how intense the feeling is.
it also happens in my thoughts. I tend to think visually and in words at the same time -- I'll see a picture of what I'm thinking about, and hear a stream of words in my own voice describing it, all at once. the zooming thing happens to the mental image, the volume change happens to the sounds associated with that image, but not to the words describing it.
when I'm not looking at any object in particular, say, walking down the hall, the zoom doesn't happen, but my sense of depth is off. The hallway will seem much longer. I'm still able to maneuver just fine, so it's apparently not affecting my judgement of space, just the visuals -- it seems like I'm moving fast to make up for the greater length.
when it's particularly intense, using a computer becomes pretty near impossible. the "physics" of 2D space flies out the window when none of the objects on the screen stay the same size.
as for the sensation associated with it... it's.. fuzzy. like my head is full of cotton, but I can think just fine.
anybody know what the hell that's all about?
as a kid (under 10), I found myself in a wierd mental state from time to time. It stopped for awhile, and I didn't get it again 'till I was about 18. These past few months it's happened more than ever, at least once a week.. usually for only a few minutes at a time..
bear with me if this doesn't make any sense. I've never put it into words.
things that I'm focusing on.. go.. big. like, it'll zoom in, go back to original, in and out, repeatedly, always in the same rhythm. At the same time my focal point is "zooming", what I'm hearing gets louder.
how much the "zoom" is, and how much the volume of my surroundings goes up, depends on how intense the feeling is.
it also happens in my thoughts. I tend to think visually and in words at the same time -- I'll see a picture of what I'm thinking about, and hear a stream of words in my own voice describing it, all at once. the zooming thing happens to the mental image, the volume change happens to the sounds associated with that image, but not to the words describing it.
when I'm not looking at any object in particular, say, walking down the hall, the zoom doesn't happen, but my sense of depth is off. The hallway will seem much longer. I'm still able to maneuver just fine, so it's apparently not affecting my judgement of space, just the visuals -- it seems like I'm moving fast to make up for the greater length.
when it's particularly intense, using a computer becomes pretty near impossible. the "physics" of 2D space flies out the window when none of the objects on the screen stay the same size.
as for the sensation associated with it... it's.. fuzzy. like my head is full of cotton, but I can think just fine.
anybody know what the hell that's all about?