the past is a very strange place.

So, there's this person that you used to hang out with a lot as a teenager. You lived in bumfukt egypt, way in the middle of nowhere, and they'd come get you and you'd spend a week at their place in the city. It was all good.

You go different ways, don't talk for awhile, move to another part of the country, return.. and see someone who knows what's this person's habits are.

Months pass, and then.. you finally see them again. It's been 6+ years since seeing this person who was, while at the time on the same level as you, extremely formative.

You walk up, "Hi, I'm me." "Wow! It's been forever. What's up? blahblah".. they ask you to buy them a drink, you do, of course. You talk some more, introduce the person to your SO, they go talk to a friend.

You get up to leave five minutes later, write your phone number, E-mail, yahoo ID on a napkin. Hand it to them with a blank napkin and a pen, and tellt hem you realy want to reconnect.

Their response? They ask you if you can spot them a hit of ecstacy.

Okay, fine, drugs, whatever. They're fun, they feel good, and in moderation ain't no threat to anything. But to ask for that kind of a spot from an old friend 15 minutes after meeting them for a 2nd time?

The past is a very, very strange place.

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Something else I just thought about..

I don't feel like I have any elders right now.

As a child, a teenager, and even in Portland, I felt like I had elders. Real people, but.. could answer questions, or at least give an opinion without them judging your question.

I feel like all the people around me I'm very in sync with. I love it; I haven't felt so much self-aware synergy in a long time, and when I had it before it came in spurts. Now, it's all around me, and when something annoys me about them, I love them for it.

But... I dunno. Maybe I have a romanticised notion of having an old crone (male or female) who's been through some shit and can tell you how it is.. but.. I've never really had that kind of situation with my parents. Me and my siblings tend to educate our parents more than the reverse; but I feel so often like it would be nice to have someone who can just make statements like "Y'know, it's like this..." and you trust every word they say, even if it's wrong.

Leave it to me to find something wrong with every situation, no matter how good it is... and trust me, it's *good* right now. I'm such an idiot.